I have a few things I want to get off my chest, please oh please let’s start this coffee date. If we were having coffee, let me share with you that I had this major drama fit with my boyfriend. Long story short, I wanted to go on a date, he wanted to spend time with his friends and then he chose them over me. That, obviously, made me bring out my major guns and just throw a major drama show. I haven’t talked to him since Tuesday morning. He hasn’t even been texting me and updating me on where he is now. I AM SO ANNOYED. I know I’m wrong for causing drama but honestly I just really wanted to spend time with him. It disappoints me even further because he didn’t even woo me. 🙁 I just wanted him to woo me. He can go and have fun, I really wasn’t planning on stopping him but I’m disappointed that he didn’t even try to win me over or whatever. Remember, we haven’t talked since Tuesday. What the heck happened to my boyfriend? Is this the same guy I was being thankful for last week? LOL.
Which brings me to my solution to my disappointment. If we were having coffee, I’d like to share that I solved it with shopping. I’m regretting it big time. Not only does it go against my minimalism goals but it’s a major overspend. BUT WHATEVER, I GUESS. 😛
If we were having coffee, I’d update you and tell you that my boyfriend just texted me. YES! Now, do I continue with this drama or be a normal girlfriend?
If we were having coffee, I’d also tell you about this feeling I’ve been having lately. This urge to just hide everything I am feeling. Hide them all and don’t face it up front. I like keeping it all bottled up and just store it. But doing this scares me. The thought of it bursting anytime soon scares me so much. This one time, I was brushing my teeth and I had an imaginary conversation with myself and then I just cried. I’m just so scared of having to face everything. This part of our coffee date is vague, I know. It’s just that some things are personal and even if I’m half anonymous, the last thing I want is for people to read about my innermost thoughts. I’m just so scared of the future and thinking about it breaks me down in so many ways. I wish I had more courage to face it.
I think mostly that’s it. Typing out that last update made me sad, to be honest. Life is just so weird, unfair and complicated.
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