How was your week, my friends? Mine was interesting. Let’s have a little chat and catch up! What do you say?
If we were having coffee, I’ll share with you that I went to the hospital to get myself checked. It has been a while since I got my visitor and it’s scaring me. Long story short, I got tests done and the prognosis is I’m not getting my period because of my weight. Well, the doctor said it’s 80% chance it’s because of my weight.
I feel embarrassed saying this but that’s the truth. It sucks so much that it’s partly my fault. I hate myself for letting this get this far. I hate myself. I blame myself.
Also, surprise! I have high cholesterol. It’s just one thing after the other with this one. 🙁
I’m currently in the phase of blaming myself. I’m letting myself feel this emotion because I want to come out stronger and wiser. I’m choosing to own up to my own decisions and mistakes. There is no one to blame but myself.
On the flipside, I am also treating this as a challenge to improve my health and make better decisions. I want this year to be all about reclaiming my health. I know I will succeed. I just need to focus and commit to this one hundred percent.
If we were having coffee, I’d say how ironic all this is! I started blogging because I wanted to improve my health. The original content of this blog were recipes and exercises, etc. I have come full circle, lol.
I don’t know.
I’m sad, confused, disappointed and embarrassed about all this…about this weight issue! I have always been confident about myself regardless of my weight. I firmly believed that I didn’t need to be thin as long as I can run, climb mountains or even walk, I’ll be fine. I guess I was wrong. 🙁
It’s time to improve my health. I will commit to this. I will do it correctly and healthily.
That’s it for now, I want to rest my eyes now. How was your week? Let’s have a chat!